Hello, my name is Emmanuel which is my middle name but the name I go by. My first name is actually a Yoruba name, Oluwasijibomi, which roughly translates to “God watch over me.” I’ve gone by Emmanuel since I moved to England at the age of 9 from Nigeria. In Nigeria I went by Siji and my parents still sometimes call me that so you can call me either Emmanuel or Siji. I’m a 20 year-old British-Nigerian black man (obviously) who loves films, television, music, literature, art, video-games and has a goofy sense of humour. I write about all these things and more. So why the title “Anxious Black Man”? Well two of these things define my place in society the most. My privileged identity as a man in society and my unprivileged identity as a black man in western society. These two identities constantly clash along with my sense of anxiety. I do not suffer from an anxiety disorder as far as I’m aware but I often feel anxious and insecure especially as a black man in a western society. It isn’t always an immediate feeling, I used to be very shy but now I’m much more comfortable in social situations despite still being an introvert. So that’s the very convoluted reason this blog is called “Anxious Black Man.” I might come up with a better name in the future but for now I feel like “Anxious Black Man” sums me up quite succinctly. I’m going to write about all kinds of things including everything I’ve mentioned so far and I hope you enjoy reading this blog. Feel free to contact me at anytime!
Peace and love, Emmanuel/Siji